Hu TaoMay 22, 2023

//It's Time I Break My Silence

⚠️TW: mention of suicide⚠️

In July 2019, I had met a writer under many names (Tyrant King, and I think Vigilance too?), who is currently active under multiple accounts including but not limited to canon characters like Optimus Prime and the T. rex from Jurassic Park, as well as OCs like Dallas Tyrannosaurus and Kaitlyn Chang. We had bonded over mutual interests such as Marvel, DC, Transformers, Jurassic Park, Japanese horror movies, etc. and had been an inseparable

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writer duo until May 2022, when I had fled Twitter and deleted all my old accounts following the death of my father. In June, I had attempted a comeback and while we continued to remain close online, things came to a screeching halt in September 2022 when we had done an RP involving his OC Kaitlyn, and my portrayals of Jotaro Kujo and Jolyne Cujoh. Not only did he private his account, but he also blocked me and deleted every interaction we ever had (both IC and OOC) as if they never happened.
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Come December 2022-January 2023, out of the blue, he told me he no longer wished to associate with me and apologized for impeding on my creative freedom, feeling he and I were holding each other back. He had subsequently blocked me on Discord, and I felt an immense amount of anger and resentment towards him, but was unable to do anything about it.

From there, after multiple failed attempts to come back to the RP scene, I decided to call it quits again and my personal life had derailed from +

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there: strained relationships with former IRL friends and even family, me harshly rejecting my ex-girlfriend, losing a job and along with it, a lot of money, and it all even got to the point where I had considered suicide. Fortunately, I had no access to lethal/instantaneous/painless methods, so I could not make an attempt on my own life. If you are concerned about my safety, I am currently seeking therapy and I had reconciled with everyone in my personal life.

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connected had also blocked me on Discord, and I had suspicions he manipulated them into cutting me off. I confronted him about it and he denies it, though I'm not sure who to believe.

He had admitted to his past mistreatment of me, but still refuses to reconcile even though I had told him directly that I already forgave him, but he had declined my reconciliation plea.

This isn't a cancellation. While he has repeatedly wronged me, I don't want anyone else to harass or threaten him.