No seizures. DTs landed me in the icu a few times with major hallucinations going on.

It was recommended I taper with gabapentin. It helps manage but I still have trouble with nearly nightly sweats and insomnia. I still shake and tremble if I try and do something that requires finesse or dexterity.

A handle EVERY SINGLE DAY is a no, that was overstated. 4 days out of the week, yeah. Red stag was my liquor of choice for a long time. I’d blackout and just keep going until I woke up wherever. Drunk tank, ER, in the grass on the side of the road in the middle of the night.

I still have megabyte usb sticks lol. I think I have one 32gb and a 64gb but the rest are all megabyte sticks.

It’s already imploding. Let’s just implode faster. Push the reset button!

Appreciate that. Counseling is my goal. Never happen, I’m a felon but dreams keep me staright

That’s my meme

I have an ex-wife. She didn’t like me drinking either. We were married for 5 years, together for 7. She ultimately ended up cheating and we got divorced.

Anyway, I was sober for the last 2 years of our relationship.

She don’t cheat because of my drinking. It was just a way out but I can tell you this… her as my wife, I should have just accommodated her wishes when it came to drinking from the get go.

Ultimately I’m there JW anyway but that didn’t have anything to do with the divorce. I still got 50/50 custody because by the time the divorce happened I had been sober for two years and I quit cold turkey. Hardest thing I’ve done.

If you’re drinking that little, there are non alcoholic 0.0 beers you could lean on and maybe ease the two of you.

You still get the refreshing taste and she gets her peace of mind.

I know. I was married too and you have your things and she has your things. You just have to decide if the minimal amount you’re already drinking is worth the altercations.

It isn’t.

I still get urges sometimes but it’s only when life really hands it to me. I still tell myself that all it’s gonna do is speed up the day and put me further behind n accounting for my responsibilities. Which is true. I binge today, I’m out for 2-3 days recouping just to get a right headspace and even then, with where I’m at, probably a month.

My thinking gets to fucking out of whack after a day of drinking that I just can’t do it anymore if I want any control in my life.

Stay in control. If you can’t not have those few beers, even if you feel entitled and it’s not a big deal… resentment can lead to the drinking.

Just think about it. You’re entitled to your own decisions. It doesn’t sound like you’re being b the level I ever was but it’s a battle I would t fight with a spouse.

It’s a battle I would’ve fought before they became my spouse.