Hello, I still want to be a anonymous, but some details. 50+ married with 3 kids in Pittsburgh. I have been disabled my entire life and it's entirety is focused on survival. I have excelled at times but the periods are brief. My work when I could was in integrated medicine (Allegheny General Hospital and UPMC) and community behavioral health.
I am a Tibetan Buddhist, specifically Bon, and my view on mental health is Buddhist and my view on physical mostly biochemical/structural.
A year ago Paul Farmer died.
Yesterday, our 19 year old cat died and my 9 year old daughter C Farmer (yes she is related) said "why can't everything live forever?" As she held our dying boy.
We talked about how that is impossible and how our job is to make life as enjoyable as possible and be there for beings when life is no longer possible.
Since she was 4 she wanted to be a doctor to save lives. It is karmic for her. Paul and Booboo kitty will help her accomplish that.
When you hold breath repeatedly, your heart rate will try to increase.
It can spike.
We are trying to slow breathing, really slow it and not spike heart rate. This is how you know you are accomplishing practice and ready for increased complexity and effort
Here is my heart rate graph.
Not bad
This is not like strip mall and health club yoga
You will see, it's a way to rebuild your body from the ground up.
You should follow me doing this.
For a reference point here are photos of ankle broken on 11/5