ive disappointed so many people and squandered so many opportunities for a better life. i don't know who's a friend anymore. i don't feel that there's anybody i can talk to, for one reason or another

i haven't seen a doctor in years and i chain smoke. i have had terrible adjusting to my new job and balancing the responsibilities there with my husband and through it all i mentally feel as if im dying. i could have late stage lung cancer and i wouldn't know or care because ive already been such a tremendous failure at everything what's dying young too?

this little man is only two months old but he's already had three owners. I don't know anything about the first owner other than she had him and his sister in a trash bag wandering around looking for someone to take them. The second owner was great but ultimately could only handle one pup