Oh my goodness, Janelle Monae! This is her new emotion picture - Dirty Computer. It's absolutely fabulous and everyone should see it, especially my fellow space bisexuals on here. Pretty sure my mouth was hanging open for the entire thing.

#janellemonae #dirtycomputer #20gayteen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdH2Sy-BlNE&t=1s

Dat sakura though...

#pinksnow

I've been on SSRIs for a wee while now. Week one felt awesome, week two was crippling insomnia, and week three is turning out to be a diarrhea extravaganza.

But barring a couple of days, I have experienced little to no anxiety during this time. Even with the restless nights and endless poos, this feels better. It's really put into perspective how bad my mental health had gotten.

Hopefully the side effects subside soon and I can just enjoy this new peacefulness.

I've been on SSRIs for a few days now. I was told they can take a while to kick in but I noticed a big difference from day one. Don't know if I'm just placeboing or elated with the relief of finally dealing with this. Hiding and ignoring my anxiety had been a bigger strain on me than I realised.

The air around me has oxygen in it again! I keep taking deep breaths and marvelling at how delicious and nourishing they are. I can feel the ground beneath my feet. My mind is quiet. It's so peaceful.

The doctor phoned me back already, and I have an appointment for Tuesday.

I'm shaking, but I did it! Hopefully this is a step towards me becoming a healthier and better functioning human.

A lot of things came together to finally make this the right time for me to start looking for help, but the Mastodon community certainly played a role there. Hearing people discuss mental health so openly and being so supportive of each other here has been so helpful.

Thank you, everyone.

I don't usually bother with resolutions, but this year I'm determined to start taking my mental health more seriously. I want to finally address the probable anxiety I've been doing my best to ignore for years.

I couldn't get out of bed until midday stressing about phoning a mental health clinic and trying to make an appointment in Japanese, but I did it, and now I just have to wait for the English speaking doctor to phone me back.

Now to reward myself by playing video games until I pass out!

Attempting to fish. Her face says it all really.

#StardewValley #Gaming

"Miss foreigner! Hello!"
"Hello!"
"Where are you from?"
"Scotland."
"What is a Scotland?"
"England. I'm from England."
"Oh! Harry Potter! Peter Rabbit!"
"That's right."

A recent Japanese conversation. A lot of my conversations with strangers here follow a similar pattern. If I have time, I'll always use it to explain the weird structure of the UK, of course.