Knee Neart

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Irish queer in Aotearoa.
A couple of years since I left the #punk scene in the city to try this #off-grid #solarpunk shit in the middle of nowhere while also learning this #parenting lark.

Trying to learn new (to me, but actually very old) skills and figure out how to live my best dynamic equilibrium with this harsh environment.

#MentalHealth and #EDS have huge and constant impacts on my life that I'll likely post about.

Despite only learning it in school, and living on the other side of the world, I am trying to bring my kiddo up with #gaeilge - the Irish language. I'll hashtag my posts in Irish with the word Gaeilge if you wana filter that out.

I'm not gonna swear AT you, but there will likely be swearing in a shit-tonne of my posts.

I'm not gonna boost or share images without alt-text.

Medical and recreational #cannabis user, strong #acab sentiments.
Knee Neart Jul 27, 2023
Goodbye blue sky, Hello horizontal rain in misty veils.

I fucking love this part of the country.

I don't even care what it's like on the other side of the Kilmog.
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@urbanfoxe honestly a part of me is relieved she's free of this world, the phrase ar shlí na fhírinne keeps coming to me, an Irish euphemism for death, and I can't help thinking that the way of truth was her way of life.
Knee Neart Jul 26, 2023
PLEASE HELP!
I'm on a bus with a 3 year old, for whom I bought new colouring pencils and a notebook for the journey.

BUT THERES A CODE TO OPEN THE NOTEBOOK.

I threw away the plastic covering and potential instructions before we left the house!

How do?

#parenting #code #lockedOut #unqualifiedForThisSmallChildsToy
Knee Neart Jul 26, 2023
Woohoo! On the bus to Ōtepoti.

Kiddo is in fine spirits though I feel like an ass telling her to keep her voice down. Curb that joy!

I'm nervously waiting to find out what I left behind.

And glad that I am going to the perfect people to have a drink and talk about Sinéad O'Connor. Every now and then, an influential person's death affects me emotionally and apparently she was one of those.
Show threadKnee Neart Jul 26, 2023
@lightweight not just the youngsters - I imagine their parents had a hand. Not to mention the peer pressure.
Show threadKnee Neart Jul 26, 2023
@craftygardennz she was ahead of her time in so many ways in Ireland. It's hard to emphasise how insular and vicious Irish society could be.

She was so brave.
Show threadKnee Neart Jul 26, 2023
@Ground oh no, first post​​
Knee Neart Jul 26, 2023
Almost packed for the Big Trip South tomorrow. So hard trying to fit everything into a backpack. Grand for myself, but wtf is the 3yr old gonna need for 3 nights away that I'm not thinking of? 🤯

And fingers crossed for the bus from Timaru to Dunedin with here after an hour and a half in the car already 😅

Yes, I'm in the freaking out stage of my almost holiday 😬🤦🏻‍♂️
Knee Neart Jul 26, 2023
@T sounds like you'd be safer around the stuff than me. ☺️

Nah, anti depressants never did anything positive for me, either. Broke my brain into a bipolar pattern instead. Spent the best part of a decade being unstable on them before the nortriptyline prompted me to quitting them all in favour of weed and being proactive of my needs.
Knee Neart Jul 26, 2023
@T I was given it as an anti depressant (in conjunction with a mood stabilizer) and it was mostly good with me, compared to others.

The two points where it became a problem for me are [⚠️ potentially triggering] that, as an antidepressant,it helped numb my feelings, but ultimately when suicidal ideation inevitably reared its head, there was none of the angst of fighting the impulse; it kinda numbed the spark that keeps me alive. There were a couple of scary incidents and eventually, the fact that it is a dangerous drug in overdose instances became relevant.

Saying this not to scare you, and I hope you have good resources and support for your mental health and this is unlikely to be an issue, but if you are prone to swings or fragility in your mental health, it's definitely worth factoring those risks into your decision.