@Alex22 I totally get this feeling of "be careful what you wish for." Working for success comes with a huge price. I question my opportunity cost and look for an easier life all the time. My everything wears out before my job requirements are met.
I am home sick today with bronchitis and ear infections. Didn't even know I was this sick. Illness gave me a mental break today.
I don't know the answer. I do know living in poverty is not an option if I want to keep friends and family.