I can no longer log into Twitter/X and everybody' from 15 years has gone. I don't know if it's permanent but 4 hours is long enough to terrify me.

Happy Christmas everybody 🎄🎁 x

@fern This was Betty

@fern Yes, I've just started here after years on Twitter. I know my neighbours to say hello to, and have a bit of a chat, but not more than that. For the past few years I've had terrible social anxiety, then developed a heart problem, so I rarely leave the house now. I'll be OK.

@fern Thank you. I'm finding it very hard. I don't have anybody else. Divorced, single, no children, no close family, friends hundreds of miles away. My poor girl was my family.

My cat died 6 weeks ago, put to sleep because she had cancer. She wasn't old. I knew she was everything to me, but not that she was in every part of my life - sleeping, waking, cooking, eating, shopping, the weather, conversation (she was a talkative little tortie), touch, everything. The love of my life. I didn't know it was possible to be this lonely.