Austria is poised to fall into the hands of a fascist authoritarian populist in national elections this Sunday. Again.

I lie in bed, unable to protest, unable to be part of the resistance, unable to keep my own body fed and clean without help. I listen to the news. I practice new swear words in German. My partner, working full time and caregiving full time, rubs his exhausted eyes, turns off the radio and helps me into the bath.

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