Any bad bitches want to take advantage of me rn 🥺🥺🥺
I've practically begged her to not pressure me into things like going out, talking, or having sex.
She doesn't understand consent, she makes me feel guilty for changing my mind, she makes me feel guilty for not wanting to call out of nowhere. She acts like she can't be happy without me and honestly maybe she can't but it's not my problem.
The audacity to be upset right after I said I didn't want to have sex, to give me the cold shoulder, not explain why your upset, and just leaving me to worry and think.
I feel like I've had my boundaries and self confidence eroded over months and I still feel like I can't end it because it would hurt her
She argued that the word "pressure" made her feel bad. And apparently that's not why she was upset but later she said it kinda was. So she just said she wasn't upset by that so that I would feel bad and apologize? Why do I do this?
I want so bad to make things work but I feel like I'm constantly de-escalating or snapping, or being talked down to, or yelled at or guilted.
If I do something that upsets her I "always do this" if I set normal boundaries they upset and hurt her. She'll be angered by the vocabulary I use to describe how she treats me.
And it's just holy fucking shit this is insane to just write out and reevaluate as not normal
Like what do you mean I feel scared to say no to her? I don't even need to hear anyone's response. What am I doing to myself?
Actually describing my fights with my girlfriend to other people is making me realize I am NOT in a good situation
I just don't want to feel this way anymore but it won't stop it won't leave me alone
This shit sucks I'm only making things worse. I can't hold it together I feel broken.
God I'm so tired of being transgender. I want to either give up and detransition again or just cut off my balls so at least I can't get worse
It's not like hrt us difficult to do right? Why the fuck do doctors keep leaving? I feel like I'm going insane like I can't keep myself together. I wasn't ready for this to happen again
Fuck that man I'm done in not doing this shit it's so tiring. I need to tear my skin off I hate this stupid fucking body I hate this shit it's disgusting and there's no point in taking care of it anymore I'm never going to have happiness like I don't know what I did to deserve this but fine you win I give up
