I think my relationship with my mamma is failing and falling apart. I'm in foster care now so I don't get to see her. I'm seeing her get married in August. I'm happy for her, but I'm afraid of her. I love her as a mama but hate her as a person. She's the reason I was suicidal and depressed. I keep hearing her voice when I'm alone saying all those terrible things about me. I know I'm not a bitch, an "it", and think I'm better than everyone, but it hurts because why would mama say that?