I will not get over this given time nor exposure. That may be selfish but it is a selfishness I will afford myself and I am unashamed of it. It is being selfish to take care of myself.

I do it because I don't like the path acceptance will lead me down. I deserve to feel this anger and cold disgust for as long as I want to hold them.

I want them to be a part of me to remind me that I still have the right to be upset over this, regardless of what people do to paint my perceptions as invalid.