✨❄️Winter❄️✨And you know people have your back. And very small number of people but you watch them struggle as well. Parents are broke. Siblings are broke. No friends you are close enough to to ask for help (not that you would because you know that cause a shit ton of anxiety) so you just suffer in silence. And even with insurance you still can't afford to see a doctor. So you physically hurt as well as mentally and emotionally hurt constantly. Now it's 5:30. I really need to get out of bed now.
AQuestForLife@Mehitora you are not alone. So relatable. ❤️ [Red heart emoji]
@Tehfraga Thanks. Yeah, I know you relate.
@Mehitora is there anything I can do to support you today?
@Tehfraga Just kind words. That's all I need. I posted something on another site that I thought would grant me some support from my "friends" but all I got was backlash making me and my mental illness out to be the problem. I even went into some detail about how the illnesses affect me but somehow my lack of support was still so my fault and it set me off in a bad dark way. I'm trying to work through it but I still feel like shit. Thanks for the support. I need better friends.
@Mehitora ugh. That's so terrible. I'm sorry your "friends" are not so friendly. Urgh. ❤️ [Red heart emoji]
@Tehfraga Yeah, I really feel like I don't really have people I can talk to and be real with...but I bet you at least know a bit about where I live. So backwards. I have to listen to one of my closest friends tell her children that LGBTQ+ people are weird, wrong, and mental and I'm not allowed to tell them anything contrary to that. That's a normal daily thing for me. It's a wonder I'm not more mental than I am.
@Mehitora ugh. That's so painful and difficult. I'm sorry you have to experience that. Do you ever see yourself moving away from there?
@Tehfraga I've thought about certainly, 100%, but because of my career field I have to be very careful where I move. Some states don't accept my qualifications. Although I'm very tempted to quit my job and just be a writer/artist, but I'm terrified of failure.