And you know people have your back. And very small number of people but you watch them struggle as well. Parents are broke. Siblings are broke. No friends you are close enough to to ask for help (not that you would because you know that cause a shit ton of anxiety) so you just suffer in silence. And even with insurance you still can't afford to see a doctor. So you physically hurt as well as mentally and emotionally hurt constantly. Now it's 5:30. I really need to get out of bed now.

I've come to realize I have the same problem here that I have on every other social media site. I'm utterly terrified of saying anything. I may start a post 100 times and never post it. I have entirely too much anxiety over people reacting negatively to what I have to say and due to that, I have no voice.

When you ask someone who works from home to turn a sprinkler on in the garden so the plants don't die because you are at work 30 mins away and can't leave but they act like that 5 min task is just too much for them. 😡😡