rob jefferson aka tom swervoApr 14, 2017

A striking aspect of depression for me is that I have no motivation to do things that I want to do; in fact, I don't even know what I *want* most of the time.

I go to work, take care of my family, make sure I meet my obligations. But I don't have the motivation to do things solely for me. I want to hide under the covers much of the time, but that's a nonstarter and is hard to adequately explain.

Show threadMx you know who
@techstepper So much this. It's how it hits me too.
Apr 14, 2017 at 8:17pmWeb
Show threadrob jefferson aka tom swervoApr 14, 2017
@aredridel This has been going for months consistently and a couple of years on and off. But I tell myself it can't be too bad, because I go to work, am present to parent, and so forth. Even when my mood drops off a cliff, I still keep going, because to do otherwise feels like I'm not meeting obligations.
Show threadMx you know whoApr 14, 2017
@techstepper Yup. Which is a graceful way to fail in our culture, so yay. But it still is depression and suuuuucks. It's worth getting help getting out of if that's possible.
Show threadrob jefferson aka tom swervoApr 14, 2017
@aredridel Therapy and rejiggering my meds are both agenda items. But they're currently not on the urgent list of things. :/
Show threadMx you know whoApr 15, 2017
@techstepper aye. I get that feel. Keeping on keeping on is enough, eh?