rob jefferson aka tom swervo

A striking aspect of depression for me is that I have no motivation to do things that I want to do; in fact, I don't even know what I *want* most of the time.

I go to work, take care of my family, make sure I meet my obligations. But I don't have the motivation to do things solely for me. I want to hide under the covers much of the time, but that's a nonstarter and is hard to adequately explain.

Apr 14, 2017 at 8:09pmWeb
Show threadpublick universal friendApr 14, 2017
@techstepper I'm sorry that this is going on with you. I'm close to some people who have depression that presents this way and it's a big deal. (Which you...obviously know but I figured it might help to hear from a non depressed person that at least one person knows it is from the outside!) I hope you're getting help / medication if necessary and that it's working if you are! <3
Show threadrob jefferson aka tom swervoApr 14, 2017
@flourish I've been on medication for a while, for years in fact. I find myself wondering these days if it's not working, or my body and mind have just controlled for it.
Show threadpublick universal friendApr 14, 2017
@techstepper Sounds like it might be time to get it adjusted? (Do not mean to get in your business - but I know that that is a thing!) (It SUUUUUCKS to think you have it handled and then not have it handled!)
Show threadrob jefferson aka tom swervoApr 14, 2017
@flourish Probably. At least, that thought has crossed my mind, if not made it into the category of "obligation".
Show threadPaul EApr 14, 2017
@techstepper It's rough; I've caught enough minor cases here and there to deeply sympathise with folks who have a more chronic case. Wish I could help more, but I'm listening.
Show threadMx you know whoApr 14, 2017
@techstepper So much this. It's how it hits me too.
Show threadrob jefferson aka tom swervoApr 14, 2017
@aredridel This has been going for months consistently and a couple of years on and off. But I tell myself it can't be too bad, because I go to work, am present to parent, and so forth. Even when my mood drops off a cliff, I still keep going, because to do otherwise feels like I'm not meeting obligations.
Show threadMx you know whoApr 14, 2017
@techstepper Yup. Which is a graceful way to fail in our culture, so yay. But it still is depression and suuuuucks. It's worth getting help getting out of if that's possible.
Show threadrob jefferson aka tom swervoApr 14, 2017
@aredridel Therapy and rejiggering my meds are both agenda items. But they're currently not on the urgent list of things. :/
Show threadMx you know whoApr 15, 2017
@techstepper aye. I get that feel. Keeping on keeping on is enough, eh?