Feeling extremely burned out on my academic work, which lately has been almost 100% focused on satellite pollution. So I spent all weekend doing farm work instead, which was mostly very pleasant.

Turns out pulling weeds and shoveling literal shit is WAY fucking better than writing useless-but-important FCC comments about incredibly fucking dangerous shit (metaphorical shit) techbros want to launch into orbit.

And then we had a little farm accident. Everything is fine, but with a moment of hesitation or a misstep, that could have turned out EXTREMELY bad.

(A nice reminder that farming is actually quite dangerous. And farming is incredibly important, obviously.)

Everything can change in a moment. So what to spend my time on?

I am tired of writing articles about satellite pollution. I am tired of doing research on satellite pollution. I am tired of talking to journalists about satellite pollution. I am tired of talking to politicians about satellite pollution.

But I am real fucking tired of seeing satellites all over the sky every night, and these are the tools I have to fight it.

So, I'll be on the CBC morning radio shows in Regina and Saskatoon tomorrow, talking about, you guessed it...

This ramble is really to commiserate with everyone who's tired of fighting whatever your fight is. Because, holy shit, there's so much awful stuff to fight right now.

Keep fighting.

Thank you.

@sundogplanets I am very tired of fighting. I have the kind of exhaustion that does not get cured by sleep. I am fighting battles on too many fronts.
@sundogplanets Sounds like it's time for some baby goat snuggles if that's possible?
@penpencilbrush @sundogplanets Everything is better when you snuggle a goatlet :)

@sundogplanets

Please be careful enough running heavy machinery, or whatever else you were doing. I’d like you stick around!

After many years I’ve learned to stop using my chain saw when I get tired. More recently it’s also become clear that when I’m stressed I have less attention available to apply which is easy to forget if I’m doing something inherently dangerous that I’m also very familiar with.

@sundogplanets thank YOU too, for carrying it on.

It’s such a different lane from mine, I might never have understood how it really is an issue if I hadn’t somehow tripped across a goatherd posting cute baby goat pics who also turned out to be a space scientist …!!!

I just figured the dark skies and incredibly rare satellites of my childhood camping trips were a write-off. 😳

@sundogplanets We have to stick together. We can’t stop.
@sundogplanets I was just asked, in all seriousness, if I’d like to be the astronomer to help advocate for space-based solar power and how it could do good things for astronomy (by mounting telescopes on the back sides or something?). I was pretty unambiguous about how I wasn’t the guy. I almost sent him to you for a more pithy and four-letter comment.
@c_dan4th WOW yeah I'd have some fun writing that email. Hopefully they know better than to ask me. May I ask what company so I can keep an eye on them?

@sundogplanets @c_dan4th At this point I suppose the most powerful argument against this is the state of the market of ground-based PV and grid storage. You cannot beat dirt cheap.

I was sympathetic to the idea back in the 1970s. The biggest environmental problem is not so much visual pollution as the microwave power downlink.

@martinvermeer @c_dan4th Yeah, frying birds, doing who even knows what to atmospheric chemistry, and making a no-fly zone? All seems bad.

@sundogplanets @c_dan4th It's more the leakage from a beam that may be extremely well defined and harmonically clean, but... several gigawatts. A radio astronomer's nightmare.

Or, someone hacks the beam's guidance, and it illuminates New York City. The spot is just about city size.

@martinvermeer @sundogplanets Next thing you know, they’ll decide they want to do wind turbines in space.
@sundogplanets I definitely know the feeling. I probably spend ~30% of my time these days feeling entirely Done With This Sh#t. I'm a community organizer in a rural small town, and it frequently feels like I'm spitting at a wildfire. But I know that if I hold on, get some rest, and take care of myself, I'll cycle back around to the stubborn, grim joy of causing good trouble 😅
Songs that help me:
"Matches" by Sifu Hotman
"Tunnel Vision" by Aisha Badru
"Roguelike" by Guante
"Tomorrow" by Miner

@sundogplanets The bad guys rely on this asymmetry. They have effectively unlimited time and money to throw at this (like finding sympathetic astromomers) and you don't. And ninety-nine concerned people out of a hundred will throw it in the too hard basket.

But it seems to me that you are that hundreth person, and you are not only qualified but have the guts to fight this battle. And I reckon you'll win it too.

Why? Becasue a very old friend who I hadn't seen for twenty years came to visit the other day. And she couldn't stop talking about this amazing lecture she went to in a tiny hall on Stewart Island. And she's now back in the UK spreading your story.

So look after yourself, and your goats. You can only do what you can do, but never doubt that what you you do is working.

P.S. I rekon your new goats will live longer than the bad guy's insane ideas.

@foxylad WOW! A double connection with someone who came to my talk on Stewart Island?! Amazing! Thank you for sharing this, and the kind words.
@sundogplanets thank you for all you do for all of us!
@sundogplanets Thank you for what you do. It’s important to keep fighting but also to find the time doing the other things that nourish you too. 💚
@sundogplanets Professor Lawler, your knowledge & your fight keeps me in.
@sundogplanets Thanks for fighting for our sky! We'll be there to pick up other worthy battles against injustice, 
@sundogplanets Your work is definitely appreciated!