I can usually ride the waves of being autistic - now that I know. But I am not always good at recognizing emotional stuff. Which is why my life is carefully curated, especially with my abusive family.

Today my sister crashed through the barriers that I've had in place for her the past five years, denied things she absolutely said and did, and did an amazingly horrible gaslighting attack saying I must have imagined it and how sorry she feels for me.

I didn't return the attack, though I surely could have. I put the boundaries back up and moved on with my day.

What I don't know is if this will all swing back to kick me in the gut - later today, tomorrow, ever.

Adulting while #AuDHD is difficult.
#family #gaslighting