Yeah I am friends with the monster. I had to be in order to control non-medicated bipolar and ptsd rage rage at a life that i lived without proper support.

There are a few people who I try not to miss praying for. One in particular is my #Psychiatrist who has kept me alive and saved my life for the last time...

In all my years in the healthcare field, I have never met a finer clinician.

And she also happens to be one of my favorite people. This woman is a superhero for those of us who get lost in our minds. When it may as if the world makes fun of us, she loves us. she cares.

She introduced me to my monster, she gave it a name. You can do a lot with just a name. You learn about people.

For instance.. as I am using #Claude for this so take that with a grain of salt. ai typically creeps me out but for someone on the spectrum who has difficult time retaining knowledge it helps me a ton.

And yes this was basically calling myself stupid but I have learned to see myself not as lacking knowledge, the ability to retain. But giving me a far better one My dyslexia given me compassion for those of us who had to struggle through life while everyone else in life was lapping us.

Thank Christ the diagnostics these days for those with #dyslexia are far better. But seeing how I could not read properly until I was 11, you'd think someone noticed?

My mom gets a pass on the noticing because she battled the same demons I do #bipolar and she was the nicest person who I have ever met. You see she went non-medicated most of her life and people judged her for an un-medicated mental disorder that she sure as shit did not sign up for. Life took a crap on her and she kept her faith in Christ. She was left with six kids in a shit neighborhood by herself. My grandma had to move in. Her faith remained intact. She is one family member for sure will welcome me when I enter his kingdom.

There are around 26 fundamental physical constants in total The most recent one being challenged recently but I need to watch more YouTube content on it . Those constants if off by a hair one way or the other we are not here talking about this right now. If that is not intelligent design I challenge you to a debate.

And don't you come at me with that many worlds theory bullshit because we both know its more philosophy than actual science.

You see my Lord and science do not have to be contradictory. Many of the first astronomical discoveries were made by men of G-d, Christian, Jew and Muslim alike.

The only difference between people like me who believe in God and those that do not is that you guys are still searching for who or what did it.

And we had that answer a long time ago.
Judaism & Christianity (shared source)
In Genesis 1:3, the Torah and the Bible both contain:
"And God said, 'Let there be light,' and there was light."

Nur (24:35):
"Allah is the Light of the heavens and the earth..."

and the rest of you are still searching for an answer you won't be able to find until you open up your heart to G-d.

By how ever you practice your faith.

So you see I believe in G-d because he gave me Dr. Tiffany Hughes-Eagen. And she saved my life.

One love

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGcXF0iG-2s&list=RDEGcXF0iG-2s&start_radio=1