Despite upgrading my desktop radio gear and being licensed for years I still hate keying up because a lot of the local repeaters still feel like a big club I'm not in and it's tough to break into conversations even when I know one of the people on the other end

Like I participate in nets and exercises but I still barely participate in the social aspect of the hobby

Like I love the hobby and I've met some great people but sometimes I just don't want to pick up the mic