no regrets :3
no regrets :3
Realize that you’ll never hit 100% certainty until you come out and actually try it. I was like 99% certain when I finally worked up the courage, but that 1% was still really bothering. What got me over the edge was accepting that I need to take a leap of faith in coming out. I needed to accept my doubts and push past them, or I’d be paralyzed by fear forever.
I was at the lowest point in my life and had nothing to lose, which made that leap easier. However, I recommend against letting it get to that point. Coming out was the best decision I ever made; it made me finally see the world in color and live as an actual person for the first time. It’d be almost impossible to convince me that I was cis at this point, even if you had full control of my 5 senses and were poking around in my brain.
Yeah, maybe thats the case. Idk. I haven’t given it a lot of direct thought. I’ve always had a curiosity about having male organs (masturbation seems a lot easier for one…), but I don’t want to be a man and wouldn’t be able to identify as one, certainly. My hobbies and interests tend to be things people associate with men, but I think it’s just stuff cool people are into in general.
The reason I say I’d like to be fully androgynous is that I’m ace/aro, which took me a solid chunk of my life and a great deal of misery to figure out, and just don’t want sex organs or secondary sex characteristics at all. I want to be the sex/genderless baseline generic human bodyprint that I feel like. I’m not using them (genuinely don’t think my vag even works anymore, haven’t tried in years), don’t need them, so don’t really want them. Tried to get a hysterectomy so at least I wouldn’t have to deal with anything related to that, but I’m healthy and have no offspring so they wont go for it.
Im not sure it rises to the level of dysphoria, though, more like a preference, and one nobody would likely take particularly seriously.
Tried to get a hysterectomy so at least I wouldn’t have to deal with anything related to that, but I’m healthy and have no offspring so they wont go for it.
The cultural expectations around people “needing” to reproduce are so fucked.
Jeez if only I wouldn’t have to explain it to everyone and could always revert, I would def go through this
Gonna try that one day!