After 2 yrs of barely existing I'm facing another eviction, I'm painfully working on a commission while my last bits of food in this hotel are almost gone
I can't speak without hurting my psyche, severely hurting my psyche
Mom has been hangry for at least two weeks now, my partner helps me with a tiny meal a day for us but idk how long that will last as neither of us have real income #disabled
I thought about trying to create & stream again with these horrible conditions but... I'd rather die
Yt supremacist will censor you on this platform screaming that you're policing their lives if you dare express pain, rage or anything that doesn't blow smoke up their saviorism ego ass
Where can I even exist?
I lived in abuse & forced masking for 38 out of my 42 yrs if not more, the moment I unmasked I got trampled by the #eugenics that so called #AntiFacists uphold here & everywhere while they cry about being pioneers of chage
#Marginalized lives have not been safe for longer than I know
I don't look at the feed anymore and I'm sure today it will be littered with #NoKings while I'm watching my elderly mother starve to death, I'm dehydrated on an on for months now, my ESA's life extinguished from the cesspool that is this hotel room
Yet I'm not allowed to be angry, I have to be prim and sweet & constantly appeasing the rich while think they're dying because of a govt they bend over backwards to uphold
I'm not scared of the FBI or ICE if I proclaim all of my values against capitalism & patriarchy and colonialism; actually they'd probably end some misery
I fear the indifference of self proclaimed saviors who'd rather spend resources of time, energy, money and platform to have a rally/circle jerk party where they jump around in costumes and wave ablist jokes about #Trump and whatever other demonized human they can name
While if I say house me, feed me, I'm bleeding out - I get called an abuser
No amount of legislation will change my Brown skin against #racists
No amount of legislation will change my disabled body against eugenics
No amount of legislation will change my NeuroResistant brain against #ablism
No amount of legislation will change my uterus and femme presenting self against #misogyny
I'm disabled, unhoused and isolated more and more everyday, when I cry out my body and mind come undone
My worth has been scrutinized since b4 I was born
Yet for whatever reason I still choose to speak
I come to you today with the wonder and beauty and love that @tulsalien.bsky.social carries in their bones
"My anger wants to change the world and we will do that."
This blog very much grounded me and reminds me of why Styve is my best friend
Please read on #Kofi
SLS