Lilith, Mother of Darkness19h ago

I hate myself so much because I had to take my beloved Piki to his final journey to a vets office. Part of me wanted to get a vet to make a house call, so he could have stayed in familiar environment.
But in the end, I just couldn't do it. I knew that I could never feel at ease in my home, because I would always look at that spot while thinking "that is where he passed". I would have had to move, and my options regards to moving are currently limited, plus it's really hard to find a peaceful area where I feel safe.

But that doesn't help me, I still feel that I made his day a lot worse for him to give myself a bit more comfort. It feels so fucking selfish, and I hate myself even more than usually.

#petloss

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@Lunalucardrose20 hugs and condolences for your loss. The when/how is so difficult, I don't think I've known many people satisfied with their decision on when/how they organised their pets final journey. Knowing that if you got a house call that you wouldn't be able to stay in that home, that you'd have to move, I think you made the right choice. I dont think critters in our custody want us to make life more difficult for ourselves following their passing. I think if he knew that him going to the vets office meant you could stay in the home you shared with him, he'd be happy with that.
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Show threadLilith, Mother of Darkness6h ago
@Expsys That is a nice way of thinking, I like that. Thank you so much.