Rob 🏳️‍🌈 Rartsy Humanist

Mood. Sigh I started to write something thorough but I don't have the energy. 'Depressed' encompasses many experiences but its root is 'slowed' & that's the condition that I claim, that causes conflict. My ability to interact with others is severely curtailed.

Months ago my bf asked if I knew why I had trouble making decisions. This to me was like asking why I breathed! I think everyone struggles with decisions. Making rushed decisions is the cause of many problems in the world imo. I still 1/

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Show threadRob 🏳️‍🌈 Rartsy HumanistMar 25
don't exactly understand his point of view & what he was asking—but I know that my alienation from others often involves that from my pov they are acting faster than thinking. It may be an intentional strategy to avoid depressed moods. I can remember times when I felt busy & productive, with little time to think things through. And yes during those times I did feel threatened by slowing down. Because my activities were not fulfilling. I've made decisions to go slowly & think about meaning as 2/3
Show threadRob 🏳️‍🌈 Rartsy HumanistMar 25

my strategy for life satisfaction. That puts me out of step with most people I know & society. So when I need help to accomplish a project I run into conflict.

Currently my pain condition further slows my thinking. Nearly to a halt. But as I push to get stuff done during #moverR spring break I realize that I can still register accomplishments, at my own rate. But when the outside world knocks, calls, or texts, I freeze & wait for them to go!

But some required interactions are imminent 😬
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