Why agnostic? Like… If there’s no proof, why believe in the existence of a deity at all?

I was an agnostic for a very long time.

My main view of things - I couldn’t know if there was a god or if there wasn’t. But all that ultimate judgement shit never made any sense for me. If you’re just behaving decently because of fear of ultimate judgment, then you’re not a decent person. Ok if god would want me not to be an asshole, I’d need to be that out of my free will. And if a god demanded adherence to some random rules out of the blue - that god wouldn’t have a moral compass and I wouldn’t want to have to do anything with them in my life, being smitten down at the end would have been a consequence for me anyways.

I just want to be no asshole. So the question of there’s a god or not. I don’t care. God is irrelevant.

Thus: agnostic

The issue I had with calling myself “agnostic” is that most Christians think of it as “undecided” (which it isn’t), so they’ll try to convert you. If you tell them you’re an atheist, they’re more likely to leave you alone (in my experience).