Three images of texts with my birth father here.

Then an exchange with a friend.

I am a victim of violence. I seek aid.

@bug this looks like a lot of miscommunication. I don't know the person you are messaging, but I think they are trying but don't understand.

@theeclecticdyslexic three of the images are my sex pest father who bullies and manipulates me my whole life. Same goes for my sister and the only reason i wound up in this house was because i had injuries and when i got here the tone changed to nonstop gaslight, harassment, lying, abuse.

One of the images is with a friend i trust.

@bug I see, ya unfortunately it's hard for me, without more experience of these people to identify the gas lighting... As is sort of by design in gas lighting.

I hope your injuries heal quickly!

@theeclecticdyslexic thanks and it' ok but your doubt of me really fucking hurts ;;

@bug I don't mean it as a strike against you.

I am always wary of taking anyone's side completely in relationship dynamics. I've learned that people are very complicated, and it's hard for me to take anything at face value.

@theeclecticdyslexic in case it matters, my father is someone who manipulates people with lies and intimidation all his life. He is known to have illegally squatted on a piece of property for many years. When I asked him those years ago why there was a bagged and tied refrigerator in the back of a nasty old shed there, he snapped and said "there's two bodies in there." He has had maybe six wives, idk. They go missing idk.

I am a furtive human, honest to a fault but weak. Smart, caring, injured.

@theeclecticdyslexic he is also horribly obsessed with sex, to the point of ditching my sister and i as well as his seedy hobby shop business (the back of which was distastful pornography studio) in the 90s to break a younger woman's heart. She had a 13 year old kid. Dunno.

When I stay with him his showers always smell like feces, and various pornography hoards were always around. I was exposed to videos of him performing obscene acts. Due to this spiraling, my older brother also raped me. So .

@theeclecticdyslexic like, my mother had a kid (said brother) with a strip club owner. That man nearly beat her to death many times. She was a dancer. My dad operated a strip club across the street. That was in the bay area, California, 1980s.

I got away from this town and had a ton of growing up to do. I did that. However discrimination against physically disabled and trans people was made legal by Trump. I had severe nerve damage from medical malpractice. I became homeless and was raped more.

@theeclecticdyslexic the injuries i sustained from that were immense. Having also developed Long Covid, I was having upwards of twenty convulsive seizures per day, painful. I had no one who could care for me so I was brought crying and seizuring to be "cared for" by my sister in my dad's filthy disused home that had sat uncleaned for many months. My actions to seek survival and the means of employ and independence have been gated. There has been no "care", only lies and demeaning gaslights. Why?
@theeclecticdyslexic i ask for basic help getting supplies, i'm told in a singsong voice "sooorrryy, you're going to have to pay us money for that". I have been deprived of toilet paper, nerve pain treatments, food, and meanwhile suffer continual "disabling" by the violence of sounds, dusts, scents, and utter lies to everyone by my sister. Dunno what to say, i have said this in over 100 ways in so much art for months now. Nothing much changes, no job responses, art i post gets no attention. So .
@theeclecticdyslexic i do not trust them for anything. Not a moment. Everything they do and say is an abuse and a lie. My sister also neglects and traumatizes her cats. I do not know how many times i have to say these things, nor why i am telling you. It is surreal from my perspective. They do not stop fucking lying to all and demeaning me. They deny and act pretty. It's fucking fake. I made those films, someone was here talking to her about it. I tried to play along. She continues ableist lies.