hello

  • no you're not worthless
  • yes there's still hope no matter how much stuff sucks rn
  • yes there's definitely people willing to support you
  • no you're not alone
  • also to be egoistic for a sec: i am so fucking sick of losing people. i lost multiple friends and seven mutuals in the past year. please don't become the next.

(and yes i know it's fucking hard, but you don't have to go through shit alone)

thank you

if there's anything this place taught me is that no one cares unless you're a celeb on here

call me what you want but i operate on what i have as evidence

and i think telling people "you're not alone" is a lie - else they wouldn't be left on their own with no one checking up on them or being able to vent without being considered annoying or a burden, would they?

@m000gletje i dont think it's that people don't care, it's rather more capacity allocation

for myself: i dont have the capacity to try to emotionally support everyone on my timeline (hell, i dont even have the spoons to reply to everyone on some of my posts)

they'll allocate emotional resources to people they care about, and if you're fedi famous there'll be more people who give a shit about you, and you'll be in people's timelines more

and about the last point: honestly, to a degree, yeah you're right for some people.
but not everyone who feels alone is alone.
if you were alone a huge part of your life, or just got used to it, it's hard to realize you aren't.

you can have people checking up on you, be able to vent and be met with nothing but understanding and care, and yet still feel alone and like a burden. doesn't mean you are.

@m000gletje also note: your replies don't federate properly, wafrn does stuff weird i think, i know of this post only because the bluesky bridge bot notified me of it and i manually had to federate it to my instance by adding it as a quote in a post and only then it appeared in my notifications
i don't know why you think i am a wafrn dev like i can fix this, but whatever @gabboman new bug discovered
@gabboman @m000gletje i mean that shouldve worked withouz bridgy in the middle, i ONLY got the notif via bridgy
yeah! its probably a confusion somewhere because we do a "wait bridgy said this" and merge posts and a lot of stuff going on