@spycrab Somewhere along the way I got really curious about the sort of "what if I woke up as a girl for a day" type questions and I noticed my friends didn't care for the question as much as I did, but at that point I tried to ignore it and move on. Later, I wouldn't say I knew, but I knew it was a possibility. Like I remember asking the girl I was interested in if she could ever be interested in dating a trans person and I knew I was asking about myself, but I still didn't consider myself trans yet. Some sort of denial I guess. Eventually I realized that I was putting a lot of energy into fantasies about being a girl that I couldn't deny it anymore. Like I was probably fantasizing about it most nights after a point. Sometimes I still have my moments of self-doubt or second guessing, but then I notice that I don't fantasize about being a boy again.