My mates from the UK are visiting me here in Canada in 13 days.

I really, really need to have quit smoking (both cigs and weed) by then if I can. The problem is the cravings are constant and horrible. The last method that helped me quit isn't working for me this time (patches + gum). The cravings are still there, itching at me, and it makes me give up quickly.

I'm going to talk to the pharmacist tomorrow and see what other methods they recommend.

All the hugs and luck are appreciated. This is really hard for me, smoking has been a crutch for me for so long and I really need to stop. I have to... I can't keep living like this...

Just so y'all know, I am a pretty constant smoker. I'm chain smoking right now because I'm anxious as fuck to go to the pharmacist tomorrow. I know I need to stop. I want to stop. And I will. I've quit smoking before and I can again.

And this time, I'm not alone in this. Last time I quit smoking I did it on my own while my husband was still a smoker. I got pulled back in cause he was still smoking and I was dealing with anxiety and sadness about something, and I got weak.

This time, my husband wants to quit smoking with me, so we'll be talking to the pharmacist together. And we'll be able to support each other once we quit.

But gods I'm nearly shaking I'm so anxious about this. I want to, -need- to be strong. I have my loved ones supporting me. I can do this.

I can do this...

...right?