I started wondering how my fluid gender felt like before I understood I'm non-binary. Over the last three years, I've drawn several diagrams of how I envision my gender and its fluidity but these latest thoughts made me refine it a bit.
My current guess is that before my egg cracked, my gender moved mostly along the continuum agender-neutrois-demiboy. The other branch that deviates from above neutrois, maverique, was there but didn't find proper ways of presenting itself.
Ha, here I am, once again trying to settle with a nice box that is my gender. And no, I'm not done with the labels either. But as my therapist said, there's a difference between it being fun exploration and obsessive, anxious search. This is again on the fun side with no anxiety in sight.
