Mastodawn

When I was figuring my self out, one of the things that cracked off a big chunk of shell was a reasonably famous dude on Twitter (well you know Twitter famous) saying he'd thought about his gender and come to the conclusion he was really a dude.

Up until that point I'd been hiding behind the assumption that anyone who actually thought about this would end up figuring they aren't their gender assigned at birth, and most people have just never thought about it but were probably some flavour of non binary at least.

RE: masto.hackers.town/users/siege/statuses/116177643222854981

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Persephone Mar 5

So... Hay... Cis folk, I... Errr... Think there are some of you following me... Maybe...

Want to do a trans person a solid and chime in with your answers below.?

Have you thought about your gender? What it would be like to not be your current gender?

Did it feel good? Better? "Oh fuck no"?

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Styx

@mindpersephone

I have tought about this for years. Currently consider myself cis because
Its an easy spot. I was socialized as such and I dont really have that much against it.
The closest label I may use in Queer spaces is Loripsic.
However, I do know I am not a trans man because the idea of beards and lots of hair from HRT is not appealing at all.

I do think I may be a flavour of nonbinary, or a weird Cis-Enby thing, hiding in a very specific micro-label. But since I do not pursue HRT or social transition besides the statement to prefer she/her and ix/ixs as pronouns, I dont feel valid enough for it.

But I do feel weird both in gender and sexual orientation. For example, I label myself as a bi woman, but I often feel disconnected from the label "sapphic", and sometimes i experience my attraction to women as "like a man loving a woman" despite that i am not a man in any level and neither gender non conforming *enough*. (It might be some internalized homophobia where I am unable to take away heteronormativity despite my efforts to deconstruction to heal).

For me, at least, has been a very hard, confusing journey that intersects with childhood trauma and religious trauma.

Thinking alot about this shuts me down and makes me wish to be formless energy orb.