Something weird abt me...

I have a rly good memory. Not "remember everything all the time" good but def "if I need it, I can probs find it."

But w those memories comes most of how I was feeling when I made them. It's why I have probs forgiving ppl. It's why grief and anger and stuffs stay a long time.

It's tbh, for real, why I don't keep friends.

That's why I kind of hate it when ppl say "oh Dio having a memory like urs would be amazing! Ur so lucky!"

I mean sure, okay, it is useful. But when ppl are mean or cruel, when I'm hurt, when someone I care abt leaves or dies... I feel that, for a long time. So I don't rly feel lucky most days.

I just feel alone.

#QnA #Eidetic