Diotima

Something weird abt me...

I have a rly good memory. Not "remember everything all the time" good but def "if I need it, I can probs find it."

But w those memories comes most of how I was feeling when I made them. It's why I have probs forgiving ppl. It's why grief and anger and stuffs stay a long time.

It's tbh, for real, why I don't keep friends.

That's why I kind of hate it when ppl say "oh Dio having a memory like urs would be amazing! Ur so lucky!"

I mean sure, okay, it is useful. But when ppl are mean or cruel, when I'm hurt, when someone I care abt leaves or dies... I feel that, for a long time. So I don't rly feel lucky most days.

I just feel alone.

#QnA #Eidetic

Mar 5 at 4:41amWeb
Show threadRiver CrowMar 5

@tiefling sorries, that does sound hard. Let me know if you ever need to vent stuff. 💜

My memory is full of holes, some prob there for good reasons.

Show threadDiotimaMar 5

@therivercrow I could lie and say I wish I could forget but even tho it sucks a lot, no thank u. This is me.

But thank u. There's not rly a vent tho just me being me.

Show threadalsvhaMar 5

@tiefling I can truly sympathetic - the reflection and introspective aspects of such a mind can be harsh and the subsequent/resulting feelings are hard to deal with.

Here's hoping a little sun can shine through the clouds

Show threadDiotimaMar 5
@alsvha I mean I'm used to it tbh I have always been this way. Thank u tho.