@orange it's definitely/probably something we should look into as a top for ourselves -- otherwise we're always pushing for more extreme things that, admittedly, are part of why we're so hot, but we're already kinda at the point where
okay we continue to enjoy cozy fluffly gentlefemdom stuff, that's unlikely to change
but for more "serious" sadism-y stuff, we're... potentially on a trajectory to "the ptsd is how you know it's real" not-entirely-joking type stuff
hmm now that I write out loud, ptsd is pretty ragged and awful & not at all a level of disrepair I would enjoy my toys being in long-term, which is heartening to realize
we're currently at "creative and fun symptoms" and tbh that's actually a pretty deep/rich space to play in?