Being human is just constant admin. Register this, fill out that, contact the business or person. I long to just exist outside of all of the noise. Put my shoes on and just walk the fields and Downs. Survey the ocean and stand in the salty breeze. Lay in a meadow and splash in a stream. Howl in the moonlight and weep against a tree. Make friends with a badger. Form an alliance with the birds. Go to war against the snakes. Create a new religion with the dirt folk. Lose my mind and smile at the sun as I fly away to a lost continent. Transubstantiate into a being of pure energy and beam myself throughout the cosmos. Drift past the observable universe and discover a new place where matter and physics no longer exist. Join with the universe and become god. Instead I have to do my stupid little emails.

@TheBreadmonkey It's maddening. I'm caretaking for parents and a disabled sister, so I'm handling a lot of that for three households (and a business). If I had the money, I would hire a part time personal assistant to do all the driving and paperwork.

Also, it's basically impossible to play Phone Tag with contractors and insurers when you have a job that has a lot of meetings. I literally can't answer the phone for 70% of business hours, creating a self-sustaining game of endless missed calls.

@DarcMoughty

I'm sorry. That sounds really tough. Where do you live (general country / area, not your address)?

@TheBreadmonkey New England. The silver lining is that everyone and everything involved, including my house, is literally along a two mile stretch of a neighborhood. So at least it's all short trips instead of sitting in traffic.

@DarcMoughty

Ah I was going to ask if you've looked at online support groups or any eligible additional help that might be available. In the UK there are often initiatives, benefits or volunteers that you can look into but we're quite built up and I think New England is quite spaced out? I'm sure you have already thought of that, but occasionally someone will suggest something to me I hadn't considered and it turns out to be useful. Power to you anyway. I hope all of the good things for you and yours. 😊❤️

@TheBreadmonkey Oh, thanks. I go to regular therapy type stuff, and I managed to operationalize and put boundaries on everything to preserve my sanity. I spent a year sort of panicking and falling apart over it, but it all seems very doable now. I just have to keep my own ducks in a row, mealprep on Sunday, eat and exercise where I can squeeze it in, and put my foot down when I need a break.