@Impossible_PhD I don't normally do New Year's resolutions, and I started out pretty down on observing the new year. Why would I want a new year when the old one was so terrible? But by the time I went to sleep I found myself with a resolution. I've got a lot of work to do on myself, and one part of that is that I'm going to stop making myself small.
I still have to unwrap what that means, honestly. But I know I moderate my actions based on the anticipated reaction or lack of reaction from other people. I need to learn how to do things for my own satisfaction and to stop letting a few mistakes and negative experiences color my expectations.