Hey, you.

Yes, you.

You, specifically.

You deserve to take up space. To ask for help from your friends when your heart hurts. To share your joy at your triumphs at full volume. To live as the most authentic version of your self, no matter what other people think.

You deserve to be life-sized.

@Impossible_PhD

I am working on it. 😊 💪

@Impossible_PhD need this burned into my brain matter.
@Reborn_Cat_Mom_V2 Hmm I wonder why I might've posted such a thing this morning.
@Impossible_PhD Because you wanted to see me tell a lie with a simple nod.  
@Reborn_Cat_Mom_V2
@Impossible_PhD
That was well timed: not long ago I would have refused to believe it but I'm finally getting better! (thanks to hormones and some wonderful people here)
@Impossible_PhD I don't know that I ever will be. Not offline. I never found my tribe. But I do long for it.
@gistofspirit and the worst part is after a while you start to assume it's you.
@Impossible_PhD
I will be including a copy of this toot next time I book an economy airline ticket

@Impossible_PhD I don't normally do New Year's resolutions, and I started out pretty down on observing the new year. Why would I want a new year when the old one was so terrible? But by the time I went to sleep I found myself with a resolution. I've got a lot of work to do on myself, and one part of that is that I'm going to stop making myself small.

I still have to unwrap what that means, honestly. But I know I moderate my actions based on the anticipated reaction or lack of reaction from other people. I need to learn how to do things for my own satisfaction and to stop letting a few mistakes and negative experiences color my expectations.

@Impossible_PhD for most of the last year I would not be the target audience for this, but right now this hits
@Impossible_PhD thankyou. Despite my friends caring about me it's really difficult to shake off sometimes.

@Impossible_PhD

there’s a small part of me that actively resists this.

but she’s getting better :)

@Impossible_PhD 🤨 sometimes I think and my therapist are on the same page, he literally said the same thing to me yesterday in session 🤔
@MoonshotErin it's a lesson a lot of trans folks need to learn.
@Impossible_PhD
my mother just said that as a reason for her criticizing others, even when useless.
@Impossible_PhD Even if I have never had any friends and, at this point in life, probably never will?
@Impossible_PhD if I could trust myself enough to believe I wouldn't be taking someone else's space if I relax my guard on myself

@Impossible_PhD
I appreciate the sentiment that I deserve to take up space

But I wanna be smol