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CaptainPedanticI feel you. It’s super frustrating. Don’t give up looking though!
Ask some of your friends who have therapists for help. Therapists also seem to know each other, so a friend’s therapist could give a recommendation for someone who might be able to help.
Openpathcollective.org is a great place for more affordable therapy. It’s where I found my therapist of 5 years