No, you need to go to therapy and talk these feelings through with a professional.
I’ve been in a similar emotional state and with therapy I realized my ‘dgaf’ attitude was the only way I could keep living after a traumatic incident I experienced as a child, twenty-five years ago. I had been forcing my self away from having any meaningful relationships out of fear that they would make me feel bad, like I did on that day as a child. Before therapy I had forgotten it had ever happened, but afterwards I realized so much about myself and it all just clicked into place; all of my strange behaviours, my anti-social tendencies, my mentality of not giving a fuck about you or anyone else. It was all to avoid negative emotions. I wish I had gone, or been able to go, to therapy a lot sooner. I would be much happier then I am now if I did, but it matters not because I did go, and I talked things out; I worked out the cause of all this pain and healed.
Ask yourself, when was the last time you cried?