@Nio
I wish I had the magic solution to this... Even though I share a *lot* on here, being social is harder to do, because it means interacting. When I share things, it's just me unloading my things, without anyone near to distract me or comment before I've "said" my piece...
Since I lost the ability to work, since my health got bad, and since becoming single... Yeah, I feel you on every dat being the same. 😔 Even though, for me, routine gives some comfort and stability, it doesn't always mean it's something exciting. If that makes sense...

Maybe just try sharing little things on here. It can be serious, silly, just a thought, something you did... Don't write it to please others, write it to show others who you are.

People will see the toots and they may interact. They will respond to something you shared, so it should be easier, in a way, to maybe connect about it. While doing so, you may find your people, and you may grow closer to a few, that you can be social with without any fear, when you have bad days.

Remember how you "found me", and we connected?  well, you replied to something I "just" shared... So maybe, by sharing things you feel comfortable with writing about, others will "find you", and connect.

There is no pressure. There are no expectations. It's "just you being you", and maybe making connections because of that...

I hope this helps a bit. And I am very sorry that you're feeling this way. But, you reached out here, which is a start on building those connections. 

You know how to reach me if you want to chat! 💜🫂🌸