@mrgrumpymonkey @skyfire747 I did not have a mental breakdown.

I had a mental stitching and now it's a bit raw and scarred.

@mrgrumpymonkey @skyfire747 Pretty much.

I might even have Disassociative Identity disorder and then I can start telling people I have twice their personality.

@RationalizedInsanity

DID is another refer to specialist type diagnosis, but my pet theory is that allllllll trauma survivors have parts. Masking/code switching/etc is a function of surviving a hostile environment.

Parts do not inherently mean DID. That diagnosis indicates that you lose time between the personalities and do not remember what another alter might have done.

@lucyruthe I have had that exact issue which is why it is so concerning.

However thankfully it doesn't just happen randomly.

Some fucked up shit needs to be going on around me before that kinda thing happens.

There is definitely some flipping back and forth that happens as soon as I feel stressed or threatened at all though.

Like the asshole side looks out the window and makes a few warning shots before they entirely step outside.

Then I do super bold stuff and forget a lot if he does.

@RationalizedInsanity

Anything that causes you to lose time means that you should be seeing someone about it. And it makes sense that it would be triggered by fucked up shit, as that diagnosis is also regularly triggered by fucked up shit during childhood.

Flipping back and forth is a common nervous system response to trauma/chronic stress.

It's the losing time that makes it worth checking out with a specialist.

@lucyruthe Thankfully I have a very good set of doctors already.

And appointments.

And they helped me figure this out.