I wish I could do away with my angry (shouty) outbursts. It’s got bad in past months (with my dad dying in 2024 & his mum and dad in 2025 (both v. old, I admit)). Family (kids & kids’ mum) copping brunt of it – not good. I’m all tyrannical and wish I wasn’t. Brings to mind Mr Ramsay from Virginia Woolf’s ship-saving book (‘storm’d at,’ &c.). At a loss.