Oh hey there's that break down I knew was coming. And here's me screaming for help from people, being met with. Oh what's that? Ignoring the problem? Why yes let's scoot around my issue like I'm not over here just wanting to feel valid!

Not only did my work schedule change to fuck all, I got a flu shot, caused a huge lump to form, when the lump disappeared I had a head cold. That was Sunday, it's now Friday night. I still can't breath through my nose, i wake up feeling like I'm auffoc oh and I've lost my sense of taste for the last 3 day. Which in turn is making me give up the will to eat food.

Can't taste shit, everything tastes like nothing. Made some rice, nothing, mare Brussel sprouts, felt judt weird in a liquid. I just do not care to eat anything, let alone enough to stop me from being hungry. I also bought food last weekend. Yeah that's going to rot now, no point in eating it cause I can't taste anything! And yes I've flat put said this to people, I've lost the will to eat food. Silence, nothing no words 9f encourage, most just words of wanting me to stop being so pessimistic.

Oh also add this to the shit cake, woke up today in severe pain. Why? Cyst had formed in my right hand, which also caused my arthritis to Flare up to the point of I couldn't use my hand. Should I call my Dr? Why? Did it Monday got charged $35 to be told just drink fluids, it's not the flu shot, and monitor that cough. The cough dries out my throat, kicks my gage reflex which causes me to vomit.

So YEAH IM CURRENTLY HAVIBG A BREAKDOWN ALONE IN THE DARK. Trying to figure out how to survive the weekend of isolation cause I can't deal woth people.