Aside:

I mean the truth is a very close friend of mine had a sudden medical emergency, where it was discovered that his battle with cancer is being mismanaged and he would die. Like literally "this sucks but it is going to be fine" to "oops, sorry, you are already dead" about a month ago. I got the "any day now" call yesterday. I'm not okay but there's nothing anyone can do to make it better.

I mean yes, I was sick. But at the same time, I was very sad. I am still very sad.