@mcc I was somewhat like that in 1996 by 1998 I knew better because I started hanging out with network engineers at my dad’s job and then when he start his company a year later I got introduced to coding websites and then year later I met my first hacker friend.
I went to school with his younger brother and we were friends about a year later at the age of 15 that friend was arrested by the FBI for hacking a NASA weather satellite
I said to myself this world is going to rapidly change
My neurodivergent autistic brain started to hyper-fixate on networking, web design, cybersecurity, and other topics around computers
By the time I was 13 only 3 years later I started to get into robotics then 14 nuclear fission
I’m unmasking now and can say my mind found comfort in these topics it quieted little my mind
So I don’t see it as dark and gloomy
I’m optimistic about the world and the future