null surgery: a followup

a follow-up to the blog post about the surgery i had. it focuses on the recovery and my experience with my new (lack of) equipment, along with some of the more complicated feelings.

@pebble oh my fucking god this picture X3

@pebble Also thank you for writing this up and being as detailed as you were. You continue to be an exceptional voice in my radius, and the perspective and insight you have provided me over the last year has been fabulous.

I'm happy for you, and I think without blogs like this, I wouldn't have citations handy for later on when inevitably I have to tell someone they *can* transition how they want. Seeing folks express denial of the possibility isn't common for me, but I've few in this camp atm.

@RunawayDanish <3 <3 thank you, it means a lot
@RunawayDanish it's so good right
@pebble a very insightful read! i'm planning to get top surgery by the end of the year if all goes well, and this was reassuring to read...recovery might be rough, and things might not be perfect, but i don't think i'll regret it either at the end of the day
@tuxedodragon thank you tux !! <3 best of luck with your top surgery !!!! i hope it all goes well and you get to enjoy your new shape soon

getting to do tf irl is a hell of an experience /pos
@pebble I have no clue what to say about this, but it is very insightful. Thank you for sharing this.
@pebble@critters.gay interesting, and so many emotions, and I am once again wanting this same surgery...
@pebble@critters.gay well I just went down a bit of a rabbit hole, and found Options, but the whole thing collides with some other stuff and so. weh.
@pebble@critters.gay autism and exit plans and family stuff and
@pebble@critters.gay (the family stuff is mostly just assorted disability stuff and family helping with scheduling and medical things and also being autistic, to clarify)
@Boorango if it helps you feel any better after i first went down that rabbit hole i thought i'd never be able to do anything about it for the longest time, you never know how things are gonna turn out!

i feel you on the autism struggles, the period between deciding to schedule a consultation for the surgery and actually scheduling it was around 6 months because i was terrified of making the phone call weh
@Boorango a <3 i hope you get to do it someday ,,
@pebble
Thanks for writing about all of this again, I'm not really sure where I fall in regards to any bigger decisions of my own but even just knowing about any of this is already so helpful
I hope everything goes smoothly for you!
@pebble thank you again for these posts! I would have had no idea it was a thing one could get otherwise

@pebble a very insightful follow-up to that other post! very much important stuff to think about, especially those latter sections about the relating it to others (why must bodily autonomy be such a mess to access)

we aren't certain about what kind of bottom surgery we'd rather have ourselves (someone in here joked that we're playing "hole or no hole"), and getting perspectives like this.... aa.

we're too sleepy for any better words, thank you for writing this!

@pebble Honestly this is giving me a big think. Especially now that I'm deeper into HRT, times when I notice I have something unwanted down there have been happening more and more. Bottom surgery has always been this super out of reach thing that I didn't really want to bother with due to all the hassle and the fact it "didn't bother me all that much"

I'm beginning to wonder now if maybe it's been bothering more than I cared to admit

@furufoo wah xv; it's worth it to try to figure out how you really feel i think, even if it sucks for a while because of it
@pebble Congrats on getting the surgery and your recovery! Just as a note, I still occasionally experience phantom sensations even 8 years later, although it's thankfully rare.
@fluffy thank you !! <3 that's good to know

(also thank you again for writing your post, it's what pushed me to actually start looking into this <3 also a big inspiration for writing mine, in hopes it'll be that push for others)