Whenever I see pics of trans women on fedi or elsewhere, I think "wow, I wish I looked even half as good".

Y'all are some of the finest beings to walk this Earth
In VRChat I can look as good as I want, but my shitty voice ruins it.

I don't know if it's an autism thing, but my voice is made for singing, not for talking. Voice training at home doesn't work because honestly I probably need help from a professional voice therapist just to have a normal speaking voice. And therapist time is very expensive.

I can't win.
@starlightsys as one of the finest creatures to walk the earth,
It's a lot of work, but, you'll get there too if you want to!
@[email protected] Thanks for saying that, but I really feel like I won't ever.
@starlightsys Sufficient effort can overcome most issues
I'm too lazy to dig up old photos but suffice to say they weren't pretty
@[email protected] That effort isn't gonna come, because my disability makes me too exhausted or anxious to do anything most of the time.

When I need to share a selfie I have one good selfie that I took months ago when the stars aligned and the lighting was good and everything. Most of time I feel like all I can see is one of those hideous anti-trans wojacks.

It's been three years of HRT and I'm losing hope tbh.
@starlightsys right? totally relate
@starlightsys if this isn't goals then i don't know what is

https://mk.absturztau.be/notes/a3z176qsgdl501xd
Starlight ✨ (@starlight)

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