I've had post-covid symptoms for over 5 months now, which means this has gone on longer that the median time for long-covid symptoms to stop. Yay, I'm above average! 🙃
I had my worst weekend ever just after my last post. I was in bed for two and a half days. One thing I did to pass the time was work more on my 'list of categorised symptoms' so I can hopefully explain them better whenever it is I finally see a specialist of some kind. I found a lot of new words, and potential diagnoses that didn't quite fit, and I want to say it was helpful even if the process may have made me worry more than was ideal.
Looking through all the body problems that I may or may not have, all of the things that were 'similar, but not quite', I kept seeing things like "affects women in 75% of cases" or "The vast majority of people presenting with these symptoms are women" etc.
eg, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS), Multiple Sclerosis (MS), and even just basic things like migraines.
I don't know why this is and based on what I've read I suspect no one does. But I can't get the thought out of my head that my altered hormone profile from HRT could be exaggerating symptoms or even helping facilitate the onset of new symptoms. So maybe if I wasn't on HRT my body wouldn't be like this in the first place? Or if I stopped HRT then maybe I could get better faster?
I can't really go back for practical reasons (I just got my pellet implants in). But also, I don't believe that is something I would be willing to do even if I knew for a fact it would lead to a better outcome, quicker.
I hate that I'm casually thinking about this. It hurts to consider that this thing I want and appreciate so strongly could be damaging to me in some way.
But it's also reassuring to realise that I feel more at home and comfortable in this broken, falling apart body, with a brain that often struggles to form proper sentences, than I did two years ago when I was more stereotypically "healthy".
