i feel like I want to connect to people in my sphere but when I reach out I feel like often I'm not reciprocated. It's entirely possible that I'm not trying hard enough and actually other people feel like I'm disinterested in them or something. But I look around me and there's so many cool people who I have so much in common with and I would love to just nerd out on stuff we're creating or hang out and philosophize or just be dumb. But my three years in SF with only a handful of close friendships seems to be evidence that I'm just not good at this. It's funny because I have an unlimited amount of 'acquaintances' and 'colleagues', but only a few people who I'm sort of close with. I'm literally antisocial though so makes sense idk what i expected.