I'd talked myself out of posting a written version of the We Fix the Networks talk I did at XOXO because talks are performances and don't translate well to the cold medium of text.

Also, frankly, this was an emotionally vulnerable talk for me, and I fucking hate feelings.

But video is not great for lots of people and y'all are presumably aware enough to know that a talk and an essay are different things, so here:

https://erinkissane.com/xoxo

Now I get to write the essay version of Against the Dark Forest, as a treat.
(XOXO was an incredibly warm, clued-in, unexpectedly healing place to talk about this, and I'm never going to get over it.)

@kissane I'm horrible at watching videos. Especially from conferences. Especially lately. (Nothing against them, it's just hard to find the time and energy to watch things. I bookmark them, mail them to myself, put them in random reminders. But rarely watch them.) I watched yours start to end in one sitting, and it's STILL gripping me days later.

Thank you. Thank you for sharing, thank you for the vulnerability, thank you for the WORK, thank you for the gumption, thank you for the hope.

@stegrainer Eeee thank you! I find video really hard to fit in a lot of the time. I so appreciate this.
@kissane Really appreciated your talk, thank you!
@kissane I can't wait for this. This is a thing that has annoyed the shit out of me since Yancy wrote it back in 2018 or whatever.
@kissane It was a great talk. I watched the conference video (and I almost never do that). Glad you posted the text.
@kissane Thank you for this. The talk was great, and this is a really valuable companion document to have.
@kissane It was an amazing talk, and so generous of you to make it more available.
@kfitz Thank you so much, Kathleen! That means a lot to me.
@kissane oh god thank you for putting this into text for me, I can never make it to video but these words are terribly cathartic tonight
@kissane i just watched the talk, in silence, with everyone still asleep, and Iโ€™m completely flooded with emotions too hard to articulate but too precious not to return to you. Thank you from an Internet stranger. Please keep doing what you do, because you are doing it better than any of us who are yet trying.

@BjornW ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™

Iโ€™m so glad it clicked for you! Thank you for telling me!

@kissane That was an excellent talk, and so thought-provoking. Thank you.

@kissane thank you for sharing the talk on this platform and your research into a better self governed internet. It's hard not to see the struggle of independent networks as a fight for a collective identity that dares to hold capitalism responsible for poisoning the many to many channels.

Do you have the rest of the Atlantic piece that they declined?

@NormalOperator Absolutely, and yesโ€”when the main systems are unaccountable, building outside of them feels like the only way to get to accountability.

I do have the draft of that piece but I donโ€™t think Iโ€™ll share more of it beyond the extract. Too close to the bone, tbh.