Argh! My bday is tomorrow and we're trying not to freak out. It's general anxiety, but it's like omg I'm gonna be 45 and I'm still single/unemployed/poor.

I'm on the fence of posting my Amazon wishlists because I want gifts and my mom isn't here anymore to splurge on me. 😂 I know it's selfish of me, but I have been so used to getting gifts from her and my older sis (both passed) that I miss the gift giving. The festivity. Nowadays my bday gets a passing glance and a shrug. I feel it's a tragedy, but I cannot put my finger on why....

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